So many times in life you're at crossroads where you do not know which way to go. Sometimes this confusion is not because you have too many options in hand, but most times it is 'coz you do not really know what you really, really want. And this can be frustrating at times, most times, if you get what I am saying.
And then you feel like tossing a coin upwards, or look for soothsayer, or browse through the newspapers and read what the stars have to say (sic), or just look for a serendipitious sign around. Makes sense? No, at_the_least for me! How could you look around and outside for something that should come naturally to you from within? You will know when it comes from within, trust me. You don't need a someone to rant out your future. Your heart will tell you that. Your heart will tell you exactly what you need to do, where you need to go, what you need to love, what you need to let go; all you need to do is just listen without prejudice. And listen patiently to that little voice of God that speaks in your heart. That feeble, fragile and faint little voice called conscience. Most people do not realise that conscience needs to be handled with care. Most people forget if you do not listen to him now, he will hold his peace forever. And that my dear friend, is not so a good thing to live with. Without that little voice of God still beating in our hearts we would be animals on twos. I bet God doesn't want that to happen. There is still time, it is not too late, yet. Don't let him die! No, not yet. 'Coz if he dies, you will too, eventually. And I bet you don't want that miserable death, do you? Don't you dare disobey or ignore him for long. Who knows, he may be dead by tomorrow. And you may never know what may befall you. Sounds scary? I know it does.
Folks, listen - to the sound from deep within.
This reminds me of a hymn we sung in school:
Listen, let your heart keep seeking,
Listen, to his constant speaking,
Listen to the spirit calling you.
Listen, to his inspiration,
Listen, to his invitation,
Listen to the spirit calling you.
He's in the sound of the thunder,
In the whisper of the breeze.
He's in the might of the whirlwind,
In the roaring of the seas.
I recently saw the movie "A Walk To Remember" and it got me thinking and questioning my existence and my life here on earth. What are here for? Just to be born one day and then die and fade away some other day? Or is there a little more than that? Are we here just by chance? Or are we here to fulfill a deeper calling? What are we here for really?
In the movie Mandy Moore plays Jamie Sullivan, a young devout Christian girl whose ambition is "to witness a miracle" - which she does - by transforming and changing and beautifying the life of the young reckless 'lil hero, Landon Carter played by Shane West. She changes him from the inside-out. The once upon a time high school bully is transformed into someone so caring and sensitive, and all that Jamie did was being kind, patient and loving towards him. Something that seems so out of the world idea to most of us. I mean how many of us actually turn the other cheek, huh? How many of us actually walk that extra mile? How many of us still hang on and hold on to the people around us? When was the last time that we did someone something good without expecting anything back in return? I guess, that last time never was. Sad no? And mind you, Jamie was no 'holier than thou' or a 'miss goody two shoes'. She was an ordinary human being, just like us and yet she was different. Different - 'coz she trusted her faith more than her beliefs, her heart more than her mind, her feelings more than her instincts, her love and the goodness in the world than the bad and the filth that we see around.
Its time now to trust the right things and the right people, we need to not let go of a loved one - just yet. Give people one more chance, again and again, over and over. Some of them really need you and your love. Don't just give up that soon, anytime soon. Afterall everyone deserves better.
I too hope to be a Jamie, and then one day when I am done, I hope that my walk here was a walk to remember.
She said, "Promise me you won't fall in love with me.", but that is just what he did.
So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.
